A Mental Symphony

[Artist: Sirenia]



Sleep in the fire, in thorns an decay
Dreams and desires they have all been a waste
I'm getting closer, so close to awake
So close to what life's been, yet still so far away

Dancing through days...
where the pain ascend in a thousand ways
Dancing through nights...
where the darkness strikes me from inside
Dancing through life...
where its strife enshrines all my desires
Dancing through death...
a dance with the devil and flirt with the dead

Leaving the fire, abandon the flames
Lost in denial, all your life's been in vain
Life growing colder, it's closing in on you
I know you're going down, but there's no more I can do

Dancing through days...
where the pain ascend in a thousand ways
Dancing through nights...
where the darkness strikes me from inside
Dancing through life...
where its strife enshrines all my desires
Dancing through death...
a dance with the devil and flirt with the dead

Calm me down to the sound of my insanity
Voices screaming, astral dreaming
A mental symphony...

New Divide

I am sticking to song lyrics for now, until I can find my way back to my own words again. After all, this is not a regular blog. There is no audience. These are merely words with spaces in between. Breathing space. Healing. Escape. Solitude. And I miss you’s. I’m sleeping with ghosts ...



[Artist: Linkin Park]

I remembered black skies the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash as time began to blur
Like a startling sign that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

There was nothing in sight but memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide the ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Across this new divide

In every loss in every lie
In every truth that you'd deny
And each regret and each goodbye
was a mistake too great to hide
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

Elizabeth understood

'The face of all the world is changed, I think,
Since first I heard the footsteps of thy soul'

[Author: Elizabeth Barrett Browning, 1806 - 1861]

Verdwaal

'my beloved do you know
how many times I stared at clouds
thinking that I saw you there'

[Taken from: Beloved, VNV Nation]

Blindelings lees ek die tekstuur van die donker mure soos braille en tas ek soekend na die pad wat my voete moet volg. Die donkerte het my geblinddoek, my ontneem van beide ‘n refleksie en ‘n skaduwee. Dis net .. donker.

Ek struikel soms oor wat ek hoop antwoorde mag wees, maar elke onvoltooide sin deur jou is soos ‘n afgrond wat ongesiens my pad te vinnig kruis.

Dit voel by tye of ek myself kompasloos in die Grand Canyon van die lewe bevind. Ek verdwaal strategies in die stegies sonder lig aan die einde.

Ek is moeg .. ek soek tevergeefs na antwoorde, bid vir brûe oor daardie diep donker klowe, wens vir ‘n vuurvliegie om net vir ‘n wyle my pad te kruis, smag .. om jou weer raak te leef.

Vir ‘n vlietende oomblik distansieer ek my ..

.. en sien myself spartel in die kreukels van God se hand.

Albasters

jy skiet al jou albasters
in die gatjie van my hart
klein glas-oog planete waarmee
jy my wêreld stukkend spat

jou woorde rol roekeloos oor die vloer
ek kniel en tel hul biddend op
huisves jou sinne in die palm van my hand
terwyl my hart by jou verby galop

stukkende albasters oral op die vloer
glasstukke maak wonde in die vlees
ek sit my hand bewend op die splinters neer
daar … waar jy moes wees

© 24.05.2009

Dance With The Devil

[Artist: Breaking Benjamin]



Here I stand, helpless and left for dead.

Close your eyes, so many days go by.
Easy to find what's wrong, harder to find what's right.

I believe in you, I can show you that I can see right through all your empty lies.

I won't stay long, in this world so wrong.

[Chorus:]
Say goodbye, as we dance with the devil tonight.
Don't you dare look at him in the eye, as we dance with the devil tonight?

Trembling, crawling across my skin.
Feeling your cold dead eyes, stealing the life of mine.

I believe in you, I can show you that I can see right through all your empty lies.

I won't last long, in this world so wrong.

[Chorus]

Hold on. Hold on.

[Chorus]

Hold on. Hold on.

Goodbye.