Careless Whispers

Quick! Build a wall around me!

Please?

Open the door to a secret chamber. Make me disappear. Lock the door from the inside. I don’t want to play hide and seek with them anymore.

Just tell me beautiful lies. Become the perfect stranger. Hold me close but despise my existance. Blindfold me, take my hand, and run away with me from nowhere to anywhere ..

I’m not broken don’t try to fix me. Is it too much to ask when I beg you please just walk straight through me as though I’m invisible. I don’t exist. I don’t want to exist.



Stop walking around me.
Stop seeing me.
Stop ..

Light a candle. Whisper my name. Then softly kill the flame with a blow of your breath. Blow the letters of my name on your lips away.

Embrace the darkness.

See nothing.
Hear nothing.
Smell nothing.
Taste nothing.
Feel nothing.

Rid yourself of me.

And see everything.
Hear everything.
Smell everything.
Taste everything.
Feel everything.

Hear me

Lasto beth nin .. ‘hear my voice’.

I am taking my twisted mind for a stroll in the woods tonight, and I suddenly wonder .. do I even have a voice? For if so, I have forgotten the sound of it.

I am nothing more but a collection of empty words. And when I break them down into syllables, what more am I than the empty spaces in between?

My voice has lost its’ echo. My silhouette has lost its’ shadow. And I ..

I have lost myself. On the same day that you left my hand and reaped my soul.

I sometimes find myself longing for pain, in the hope of being able to feel .. something, anything.



Tonight I am hugging the trees as I pass them by. Grateful that they don’t have mirrors. I know what I am running from. And I realise that I am unable to escape it.

My only wish .. is that I knew where I was running to ..

Because once upon a time, not so very long ago, you carefully blindfolded me, turned me around and around as we danced in the shadows, and stole my direction as you walked away. Because you were my compass.

Here in the woods I dwell for the rest of forever, swaying blindfolded to the sound of a stranger which once upon a time, not so very long ago, spoke to me and said ‘Lasto beth nin’ ..

I heard your voice.

Today

[Artist: Jesse Clegg]



Hello
Today
I’m as lonely as you were in May
Today

Some say
Today
Is all there ever will be so I’ll stay
Today

CHORUS
Message to the one
Step into the sun
Remember all the days
That disappeared like rain

Open up your eyes
Everything’s alright
I tried to make you see
The wood for the trees

You pray
Today
That tomorrow will be your day
You say

I may
Today
Tell you how I am feeling, in your way
Today

CHORUS x2

OUTRO
I don’t want to be
I don’t want to be
I don’t want to be the only one

X3

I don’t want to be
I don’t want to be
I don’t want to be the lonely one

M is for Monster

Song lyrics, hmm .. not very original in maintaining a creative blog I suppose. Depending on the words of others in an attempt to portray my own thoughts and emotions, unable to speak my own.

I am praying, but I’m not sure what I’m saying anymore? It feels as if I am handing God these enormous punctuation marks, but without words preceding them. Nothing but confused naked emotions.

Depending on the words of others .. it’s not committing plagiarism, it’s borrowing a crutch when I need it most. To me, music has never been a mould into which I squeeze myself to make it fit. Music has always, ever since I can remember, shaped itself around me. Like a genuine leather shoe. It takes the shape of my soul, of the I in me. It allows me to be me .. nothing more, nothing less.



MONSTER

[Artist: Skillet]

The secret side of me
I never let you see
I keep it caged, but I can't control it, so stay away from me, the beast
Is ugly, I feel the rage, and I just can't hold it

It's scratchin on the walls
In the closet, in the halls
It comes awake, and I can't control it
Hidin' under the bed
In my body, in my head
Why won't somebody come and save me from this? Make it end!

[Chorus]
I feel it deep within
Just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster!

I hate what I've become
The nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster!

I feel like a monster!

My secret side I keep
Hid under lock and key
I keep it caged, but I can't control it, 'cause if I let him out,
He'll tear me up, break me down
Why won't somebody come and save me from this? Make it end!

It's hidin' in the dark
Its teeth are razor sharp
There's no escape for me
It wants my soul, it wants my heart

No one can hear me scream
Maybe it's just a dream
Or maybe it's inside of me
Stop this monster!

Waiting for Wings

[Artist: Vexing Souls]



All my bones rest beneath the earth.
Wilted flowers lay at my feet.
Concrete angel standing guard.
Death sings to me, "sleep child sleep".

Remember me. Love goes on.
I'll wait for you. It won't be long.

Remember me. Love goes on.
I'll wait for you. It won't be long.

Sleep child sleep. Sleep child sleep. Sleep child sleep.

I join the dead in a midnight dance.
Graceful ghosts in the pale moonlight.
Waiting for wings to set us free.
Restless souls for one more night.

Remember me. Love goes on.
I'll wait for you. It won't be long.

Remember me. Love goes on.
I'll wait for you. It won't be long.

Sleep child sleep. Sleep child sleep. Sleep child sleep.

Linger

articulately whispering my screams
while I betray the birth of a brand new day
silently hoping the night would stay for breakfast
and witness with me the new sun shining grey

I beg thee night return to me and
cradle me gently underneath thy dark veil
carry me back to my monochrome world
where I put the rainbow back up for sale

© 10 September 2009

Empty

I have become an empty shadow
leaving pieces of me behind
my reflection is that of a stranger
hoping one day a part of me you’ll find

I tie black ribbons around their wastes
as I wave good mourning to the trees
I feel their breath brushing through my hair
as they whisper hello in the breeze

I pick the fallen stars like flowers
as they lie lifeless on the ground
unlit candles within their bellies
forgotten in the dark not to be found

I am the stranger without a face
my scattered soul like fragmented debris
hoping one day to comlete the picture
and face the reality of the reflection of me

© 06.09.2009

Sad and Fallen Angel

I wish my own words could match this standard and that I was able to write like this.



I am but a sad and fallen angel
Forever in search of hope and love
No more will I fly amongst the stars
Never free to hold you in my arms
No longer can I watch over you
Denied my place in the heavens
Banished even from the hells
Here I sit and ponder my fate
Wondering what the future holds
They took my name
Stripped me of what I am
And left me with but memories
But with each and every dawn
Little by little they all fade away
Until I am left but an empty shell
A shadow of a soul

[Written and designed by: Sad and Fallen Angel]

In the Winter of my Second Death

the frostbite of winter’s subtle kiss
draws the contours of my face
pale white skin and dark brown eyes
solitude within a crowded space

I dance with me and I alone
to celebrate the birth of a new season
colour and sunshine and all things bright
a poker-face smile without a reason

I bid winter a joyous farewell
but it refuses to let me go
tears in the rain a common disguise
yet all, but you, the truth will know

© 31.08.2009